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|Trove Title||Which Wins? A Tale of Life's Impulses|
WHICH WINS ?
A TALE OF LIFE'S IMPULSES.
O»CE A WMK. I baid some time back in tor tale that Henry Barrett ?was a. practical ?worshipper of Labour. If I had reason then to make the remark, my experience of these few weeks only confirmed it. He worked, slaved, at the most unsatisfactory task that man can undertake, even the regeneration of his brother man ; worked continually with a heavy, stem nurnoBe. Yet ihn
labour did not prosper as he had a right to hope. I thought I saw the preventing reason. ' How wretchedly bad the world is,' he'eiclaitned with an impatient sigh, as he came in one day, 'I sometimes wonder that it does not crumble into utter ruin.' 'Ah, you look at one side,' I answered, 'but what vexee you, now, among all its shadows ?' 'That pitiful woman. 3Kot three days are past since I found her wallowing amid the husks of sin, and starving on them. I lifted her right away from the influence of ctU habits, and gave her a fair power of self-support. And now all her short penitence over, eht hes wearied, I imagine, for the old bad excitement, and is gone ; gone whirling back to destruction.' His groan had as much anger as Borrow in its tones. ' Poor creature ; and yet she 6cemed so earnest.' 'Earnest; yes, they'll tigh— all of them— and cry and look in your face while they heart up their promises, when the moment your back is turned there) is no abuse they'll spate you. They take your help to get out of the slouch, and then, cursing you for thanks, they just leap back far deeper than before. Oh, mine is a bitter th.atik.le8B work to do.' ?? Why do you do it then?' I questioned abruptly. ' Can I choose,' he said, ' but labour ut the duty God casts in my path ?' ' He marked you for this work, you think i' ' I think so,' slowly said, ' by the way the neccs. eity of it stormed my mind I think so.' ?'Now judge yourself impartially,' I slid, 'for most assuredly you require judgment. You think He made you for the work, and not the work for you. fcb. ? You think this God, whom you call a kind and careful Father, set you down before euch a work unassisted — you, a puny weak man, to tight a world gone raving mad with ein ? How dare you ascribe such a cruel deed to God in heaven, and not trembler' He looked in my face as if amused at my vehe mence while puzzled as to my purpose, and bade me ' Go on.' ' Yes, I will go on,' I retorted, 'I am going to say now that which I have much desired an opportunity to say. 'You work both pcrseveringly and painfully at a noble toil, and you have, despite your present dissatisfaction, no snull measure of success. And yet . I hold that neither is your work so powerful nor your success so determined as it might be.' -'Well, my pretty censor ? ' 'Don't jest, men like you ought to 6ucceed, and I'd give my right eye that you should succeed.' 'Would you,' he exclaimed more eagerly than I quite liked. I answered hastily — 'Yen, but I would just as soon give it for yonder beggarman, if his faculties and energies were like yours.' ' Well, why don't I succeed to the height of your expectations r ' This was said quite as sulkily as I could desire. ' Because you work only in your own Btrength, and only to satisfy yourself. Work is noble, but self satisfaction is not its noblest end.' ' No.' ' God's satisfactien is the noblest.' ' And I hope He is satisfied.' *' What, with your poor results - Ah, no, when by His direct inspiration He could so quickly oustrip them.' ' You're turned lecturer in earnest, Isola. But how then should I satisfy God.' ' By making over the work to Him.' ' How r' ' By thinking yourself less, and God more. He will do the work best if you just consider yourself as His passive instrument.' *' Would you have me abate my exertions then ? ' *' No ; on the contrary, I would have you redouble them. But you are too self-confident and think too much of those same exertions. I think you do not pray enough, and I fancy prayer would be a better tool in your hands than money and influence.' He answered quickly, ' The two things arc iden tical—' to labour it to pray; * ' and turned the point with a question, 'That is why you hold my work not eo powerful f — and perhaps you are right; but, as you phrased it, I think that it was not the reason you would assign for my limited success.' ' Not the whole reason, Henry, to be frank. In your intercourse with the poor creatures you seek to cervc, you show too little human feeling. One must 6tooji to raise the fallen, and where you fail is in the stooping. Ah! the wickedest heart of the most poverty-stricken values more than all your practical assistance a kind word, a teat, or a hand's love aEsuiing clasp.' 'What, more than a loaf of bread or a shilling, Itolaf' Hut I saw, for all his mocking smile, that I had conveyed gome impression of my thoughts to his mind, and I was well content to let the question rest without more conversation. Not so was Henry. From day to day he made his great work, and how it best might be performed a more common theme of his talk, and at last pressed me into the service, and set me to work with the same manlike want of mercy that he shewed to himself. Every hour that I could save from really necessary duties was spent in visiting his ' people,' as he called them. His peeple were all who suffered either from want or from sin. 'Wearily and wildly — while I paced from one squalid den of wretchedness to another, while I strove agonisingly to rouse the dead intellect that honibly imprisoned from immortal freedom immortal souls, while I rendered nightly accounts of my tasks to a stern taskmaster— wearily and wildly did I think for ever of the quiet that was not so far away, but my heart was in it still dragging me back with pain, stretched strings, of the pale brow and dim eyes and loving heart that to me were worthy of all love's wealth. But I did my duty, and bore the increasing heart-ache in silence. Meanwhile my mother grew daily more feeble, and at last could not rise from her couch. Medical men said that which we all knew well enough, that she would never again rise from it. She would not let us alter our habits for that, but faded away in our midst like a slowly dying lamp. She grieved not, nor could we ; death would be her best blessing. It was one day while matters were thus that I was returning from a visit to a poor woman who had been assisted from a state of degradation by Henry, that I met that gentleman himself, who proposed that we should walk through the D amain before returning home. I assented, being sick for fresh air, and we went. 'When anything unpleasant is about to occur I always feel a kind of atmospheric intimation of it that warns me to beat a retreat. I tried to do that before we entered the gate, by recollecting suddenly that Una had been left a long time alone. But it was useless ; the man swept me along in the flood of his strong will as if I had been a withered leaf in a whirl. wind. At last he slackened his footsteps on the grass, and, turning on me a very pale determined face, he said as if through his teeth, ' I brought you, here Isola, to ask a few questions, and I am resolved that I will have true snsims.' ' Sid I ever give you false answers, that you should so resolve f ' I answered angtily. I caught a muttered ' I pray, you did.' ' For the rest,' I continued, 'your questions could as well be asked in my own home. But since we are here, question.' ' I brought you here for quiet, Isola. Look me in the face, Isola, and think, before you speak, that all my destinv bangs upon your lips.' ?' It put' your lipB out of shape to talk sentiment. Go on.' ' Isola, s year ago did von love me ? ' As very dear friends love, I loved you, Henry.' ' Isola,' and he deepened his voice, ' two years ago did tou love me i ' ' I did, be my very dear friend and teacher. His voice shook with passion, as he caught my hand, and wrung it till I trembled with pain, and asked wildly, 'And, in the face of all my great agony, will you dare to say you never loved me ? ' But I tore my hand loose, and said, ' Let this cease once arid for ever, I told you that no friend I had was dearer. More love than that you'll never, sever, never get horn rue. ' ' Friendship 1' and he crunched the word between lU teeth and Hung it out at me ih violent rejection, Then wewalked on in silence side by side. Until he turned and looked in my face so tenderly and sadly that I could not hide the tears that were welling into my eyes. ' Oh, Henry, why do you so torture met' I esolaimed.
' Isole, darling,' he answered, ' you don't love me, and no wonder, for I am proud, stern, exacting, and unamiablo : Is it not so ? But I love you, I cannot get the thought of you from my mind, and I am not what I might be if I had jour love. Only say you'll try to love trie, dear ; only say that when your mother is gone, you will bring your little Una and makemy home yours, and let me call you wife.' t' You would have me barter my love for a home. No. Henry Barrett, yon mean well but you da not know me, it eeems. I will not wed you without love, I never can love you sufficiently for wedding, and I know that bec&usc my love is placed eUe where. You have forced me to tell you that. ' I beg your pardon,' he answered stiffly, but with a look of pain, '' Yes, I have indeed held your hand to sign my own joy's death warrant. But you will let me sec you home now.' He left me at the door, and did not return the next day. The day after I had other subjects of thought. Makcjh or No. 6 CuKPAxr or Vulc htueu itiri.E^ to Watmin'h Bay.— Between ;ufty and sixty members of tho above company, in command of Captain HarbotUo.
inorcliea to Watson's Bay on Saturday afternoon last 'i boy were to have started from tho Volunteer Uricade Olllcc, Hyde Pork, punctually at 2 p m, but it was half past before all win ready to proceed, as blank ammuni tion, for practice along tho road, had to be served out. This done, tho ooropany, heatlod by a 'dram and fife band, r composed of different members . of tho Sydney - ibaualion, commencod ^ thoir —somewhat long and;-* exceedingly vi.dusty 1 march. ': It wai !S?f?Cl.'lB^Oi'lU) *''haT-- wa -.I?01*1 ??company drill with light infantry exercise, and certainly the company did get a tolerably sovero drilling for three hours, it befog half past flvo o clock before Uie pier at Watson's Bay was reached, and during the march one stoppage only of about Urn minutes occurred, and that was at tho resldnnoo of Mr Henderson, at Double Bay, who liberally invited tho force to copious draughts of capital sherry and ctumpairno which if possible was rendered more acceptable from tho intenso bent at this time, and the dust of tho road The first place available for bringing tho company into lino was the junction of the Ginahpulah with tho South Head Road, and hero several company and battalion evolutions were performed, tho whole again advancing in column of sections; they then formed lino on tho leading sections to tho right and left, which was repeated Homo fourorfivo times; eubdivinions and sections on the march wore also frequently cjtccuted, then forming company to right and left. Thin brought them to Koso Bay, where the first sec tion was thrown oat as an adrancod guard, two and three reserve, andthufnurthwa-ifomiodasrear|;uard. In this order they proceeded about a mile, halting, advancing, and closing en tlio loading (iloa u- the sound of the bugle. Tho com pany was then thrown out in skirmishing order parallel to the road, when they commenced firing, inclining to the right (or advancing), and again coming lo the knoeliiiir pisitiun to deliver their fire. Following thin, the lino of skirmishers advanced, the front rank, or that supposed to Im nearest the enemy, Urine and loading on the march— a rather diffi cult manmuvru, and one requiring plenty of practice before it can be efficiently performed. Tho Company by thi* time had reached tho ruing ground, about a mile on tho Sydney side, of Vauclusc, when the 'close' was sounded, and three volleys tired — two by company and ono by eubdivi iuns from right to loft. From this tho march »aa rerutnad bv section*, and the halt waB again sounded en the heights overlooking Vauclusc, where the men loaded and fired two volleys into the enemy, i. c. Mr. I1'. LI ill's complimentary pigeon match party, who were also doinR a little in the skirniifjiine; line with their 'Joe Montana' and other arms of sporting warfare. These volleys wore fired with admirable prccirion, and tho remainder of the cartridges were disposed of by independent file firing. Tbo march was now resumed, and the foroe proceeded lo the pier at WnUon'e Bay, literally covered with red dust, and, having piled arms lor a short lime, thoy partook of some refroehmunt, provided by tho captain, got rid of the superfluous earth adhering to their uniforms, and marched on board the steamer liorald, which had been engaged to bring the company back to Sydner, where they arrived about eight o'clock, and were dismissed opposite die Volunteer Club, with three chwra fur tho captain and three for the drummers and fifers. The company was manoeuvred by Captain Uorbottle, with the able assistance of Sergeant-M «jor Lees, whose anxiety for the efficiency of tho corpB is proverbial. Adjutant Baynes also met the com pany on the road, and accompanied it to Watson's Bay. From what we have seen by this march, it must bo evident that it tends materially to improve the volunteer, ? by marching some distance he acquires steadiness and gives more attention to the word of command than is usually the case at ordinary parades; it creates, too, a divertissement which operates us an inducement to many to fall in who may not feel disposed to attend parades regularly, and on that account alone is very desirable. The Militia amu Volunteers of Canada..— By the papers received by the NorLUam, we Had that the effective force of tho Canadian Militia reaches 3(,425 rank end file. To this large number is to be addcl 20,000 Volunteers who have been returned on their muster rolls as effective and capable of being immediately brigaded with the militia. Thus Canada possesses a native force of 54,425 men. What an example for Australia ! OrEUATivK Bacsus' Association. — A. special meeting of the Operative Bakers' Association was held on Saturday evening, for the purpose, of forming themselves into a benefit society, and for appointing stewards for the anniver sary dinner, to be held on the second 6aturday in April. BfDREKTET Inribl-ction LECTcnp..— A Musketry Instruction Lecture was delivered, on the Mth instant, by Lieutenant CrawhalL of H.M. 12lh Regiment, at the University UolcL, Glebe, in the presence of a large number of gentlemen belonging to tuc Volun teer Rifle Cor|)B, Uic majority ofwhotu were members of the New town Company. The lecturer (who practically illustrated his remarks by diagrams and otherwise.) first explained tuc nature or the construction of the Enflcld rifle, snowing wiiat was the usis of the piece, the course of the bullet in its (light, the direc tion of the projectile, and bo forth. The line of tire was tbe direc tion in which the bullet would go but for two contravening circumstances — atmospheric action, and gravitation. Of these two, atmospheric action was an opposing force, and the attraction of gravitation, an increasing force. The true flight of the bullet by the latter became that of a curved line, ultimately touching the ground. This, the actual course of the ball, was termed the trajectory. The axis of the piece — an imaginary line drawn ccntrically through the barrel— had to be directed one foot Jive inclire above tbe object it was desired to Mjike if one hundred yard* distant. Tbe more distant the object the higher was to be the elevation, the line of the trajectory being always in strict con formity w the line of sight Aim was to be taken through the lower part of the foresight of the piece to the top of the foresight at the lip ot the barrel. The effect or the wind on the ball, ns cou uudislinguiBBcd from ordinary atmospheric pressure, was next treated of, and Die manner painted out in winch the dcuncliou or the bullet under such circumstances might be satisfactorily obvi ated. The lecturer also drew attention to another frequent cause of marksmen taking an ineffectual aim — the reduction of the fcuuliRhl on the fore-sight and back-sights or the piece. Amongst many practical observations on the musketry exercise generally. lie advised them always to load standing (ir uudcr cover), and to kneel to fire. The reason of this was, that unices tho barrel was held upright when being loaded, it would be loaded leas effectually and be mucii more Uablc to be fouled in that act. The defect in the principle or the construction or the old regulation musket was pointed out— its fault was an excessive windage. The considera tion of this point led the lecturer on to sc-cak of the manner in wlucb the evil of windage was capable of being obviaujd by the elongated expanding bullet, such as they had now in use. After sonic further practical rcmurks in connection with the subject of firing at distant objects, Lieutenant Crawhall concluded a very long and able lecture by a minute description of every part of a rifle, the way in which it is to be taken to pieces, and cleaned, and put together again. The lecture wu brought to a close shortly before nine o'clock. Winosob BcnooL op Abts.— iKArouiUL Addrkbs.— The hill of this institution was opened on Thursday, ISth Instant, by a lec ture from the Rev. Dr. tang. Mr. Ascough, J.I'., vice-president of the institution, occupied the chair, anil, in ihe course of mime very edifying remarks on the great importance of diffusing educa tion amongst the people, and that the objects of institutions of the character of mechanics' institutes were to bring together all classes of persons for the purpose of mutual Improvement, the culture of the mind in the arts and sciences, and in promoting general knowledge — introduced the lecturer. l-r. Lang, on com ing font ard, was received with loud manifcstationsorapplause. He congratulated tbe people upon the interest which they had exhibited in their social and intellectual welfare by raising so fine a building as tint In which they were then assembled. He dwelt at some considerable length upon the many advantages which institutions of that character conferred, and the benents which arose from the interchange of opinion. In the course of his introductory remarks be warmly advocated the establishment of a discussion class in connection with the institute, and spoke lit some length upon the great boon which country districts had lately had granted them by the passing of the Municipalities Act. It was a kindred institution to Schools of Arts, and a social and political benefit to any community. Independently or their sani tary objects in the adopting means for tho removal of causes of disease from towns, when viewed in connectlos with Schools or Arts they were of tbo utmost importance. In old countries many of the members of Parliament received their first knowlcdgo of Parliamentary ioutine in the local councils of their districts. The lecturer then paid a high compliment to tho colonial astronomer, born and brought up in Windsor— Mr. John Tcbbutt— und called upon the young men of the district to emulate the perseverance of that gentleman. Dr. Lang afterwards remarked that when be had first communicated with reference to delivering a lecture in that room, be had no idea of bclHff asked to deliver an inaugural address, but bad intended dc livcrtng a lecture on the present state or affairs in America. He then turned his remarks to that subject, commencing with its earliest bistorr to the present time; but as the substance or the lecture has beca alrcodv recorded in the Herald of the nth in stant, it will be superfluous for us to again repeat it On the motion of Mr. Dean— who made a forcible appeal to the public, especially the ladies, to come forward and lend a helping hand in the successful carrying out or the institution which had that night been inaugur&lcd, ana recapitulating the advantages of tlic insti tution— seconded by Mr. 8. Edgerton, a vote of thanks was unanimously awarded Dr. Long for his highly Interesting lecture. After another vote of thanks to the chairman, moved by the Rev. C. 1'. Garnsey, who intimated his Intention of opening n classical class gratis, and seconded by Mr. Ambrose, the meeting closed. Tho room was crowded to excess, there not being fewer than one hundred and fifty persons inside, Khi'.al shout t!ic doors fully fifty were at one time standing who could not gain admittance. 111. V. 1L riddiuBUra, M.L.A., has sent a handsome donation or forty-three volumes to be added to the library of the Institution. Fuke Seuxtiox.— The Goulburn Berali of Wednesday ssys —The quantity of land token up by selection eocma not at all to decrease in tills district. Last week 21 farms, comprising 1480 acres, were thus purchased ; and this week 25 farms, comprising 1503 acres. Many of the selectors have come hero from other districts. Very great inconvenlcnco has been experienced from tho want of the district maps, which the Burvcyor-Gencral ought ts have had prepared and on view at tbe local land offlco by the 1st of January last, and which ought since to have been kept duly noBted np, showing each new selection. Without this it U almost Impossible for any intending selector, and exceedingly difficult for o land agent, to ascertain whether the ground di -,reil has not been already taken up ; and thus it is quite possible that in masy instances tbe ono lot will bo selected two or three times over. Thus most serious injury may be caused.— The Fau Courier or same date states that thenumborof applicants on Tuosday for too selection was larger than it has been for somo weeks past. Voluxtieii RiPtra.-8ccond Lieutenant liwon WsUaoo Cameron, In tho Balmain Company of Now South Wales Volunteer Rifles, has been appointed W be first lieutenant in the Maw, cicc Ai wander rwiffnei