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Chapter NumberXXVIII
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Full Date1862-04-26
Page Number2
Word Count4023
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Newspaper TitleSydney Mail (NSW : 1860 - 1871)
Trove TitleWhich Wins? A Tale of Life's Impulses
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II v mother slept well, I said, on the night of my re turn ; but when she awoke I found good reason to rejoice that I had made the previous day's journey at the time I did. The joyous shock of her father's for. giveneH had been too much for her, and the morning's dawn showed tint she was 'dying. The short, panting breath, the darkening countenance, and the smile of unearthly serenity, all proved thtt she was dying. Dying ! But I did not sorrow. I had found the mother, whom I had idolised in my childhood, an out cast from society, and a sinner on the face of the earth, and in the eyes of her God. Then it agonised

have been agony multiplied ten thousand fold. But— now that the world's one work had been done— now that my mother waB not only found of me, but that - we weie both found of our Heavenly Father —now that her last breath would be drawn not only in the arms of an Bffectionate child, but in the embrace or omnipotent and eternal love, and within thessfc Bheltcr oflhecroBSOf Christ, -I thought it a theme for joy unmitigated that her poor penitent soul should be mercifully released from the frail body that »in had worn out. Dying ! and she knew it, and did not eoirow. 'Waken Una. end move me into the inner room ;' she said, as the first sunray striking through the window, rested upon her thin face, ' when the sun tets, I'll not be with you, Isold.' ' You'll be in a better place, dear mother,' I said. I would not for worlds have dtiven from her mind the thought that (he was dying, it brought such a glorious smile to her dim eyes. ' Aye 'she said fakeringly, and then repeated in her poor quivering voice a verse of the last hymn IleDry had read to her — ?? Beyond tho birth-day and the dylnjc, may I be soon, Ileyond babe'e moaning and man's crying, Or earth's lovesob and passion's Mglung, may I be soon ; Love t rcsl ! and home — sweet home '. Lord ! tarry not nut come '.' I moved her as she dcBired, and then I and Una watched at her bedside for the approach of the list sad hour. The medical man hid been in and said, what we well knew, that this wae death, and after that we waited in solemn tilence, unless when my mother feebly requested me to read her favourite scripture passages. Oh, this weary watch for death ! when the eye is strained to comprehend the meaning of every nickering expression, every faint flush, every feeble look of the traveller who is lingering with one foot in the mysterious land, whose only entrance is the grave. We thought my mother had taken a last fare - well of earth, we thoug'ht it had no longer any scene in which she could take a part ; she thought bo ber eeif, and ' turned her face to the wall ' willing and glad to be gone. Hut we were mistaken. She spake truth when she said that the setting eun would not find her where she then lay, but nevertheless, before that tun eet was to be made to her an atonement that she neither expected nor desired. I wanted some thing from her on her death-bed that should be a de cisive point on which to rest my hope, and so, when in the afternoon she rallied a little, I strove to get it by straightforward questions. ' Mother, do you want anything ? Are you quite contented .-' 'Nothing, child, I die perfectly contented and hsppy.' *? Quite happy, mother dear ':' ' Quite, Ibola.' And she smiled and put her feeble hand on my head. I drew down the hand and kissed it, and held it in mine. ' But, mother dear, I and Una would rejoice, in after years, to remember that our mother told us she wag safely trusting in Jesus.' 'I am,' she said eolemnly ; 'people who have sinned as much as I have don't know where else to N trust. I am trusting — but I can't talk, Isola.' ' It is enough, my own, own mother. God bring us to you, mother ; pray God bave us by the same trust, mother' — The door behind me opened. I turned, and in the doorway stood — oh, my upbesrer, tny supporter in every sorrow from that hour — it was John. Me euiil as gently as if we had parted but the hour before, '? I knocked, Icola, but you did not hear me, and eo I came in,' and then went up to the bed. With such a gentle manner did he come that he did not even Btartle my dying mother. She held out her hand tnd smiled. ' I am glad you are come, John Barrett, I wbb praying that you might come.' ' And 1 rejoice that you were praying, Emily.' he said cheerfully, ' I feared you might not have learnt that yet.' ' It is Isola's woik, through God,' my mother said, and drew me towards her. ' Ah, Uola.' And he raised his eyes to my face. Oh, what work of Isola's could have been worth that 1™V r.t !~-~ I l7»,.-,C.:.oly u.inot «ha harlnnet nvpr. to the other with a emile of satisfied affection ; she re cognised the silent language that was passing be tween us. But John turned awny his eyes and spoke to my mother. ' Emily, I am not here alone.' ' Ah,' she gasped, and clapped his hand con vulsively. ' Hush ! ' he said, ' be calm ! Your father is here.' ' Here, here r ' and the look of terror was piteous. I touched liis arm and signed to him to desist, but he pushed me back. ' I must do this work ;' he said. ' Emily, pray for strength now ; you must see your father.' ' My poor, old father !' she exclaimed wildly, and almost loudly. She had gained the strength of excitement. ?' Mr. Barrett, do you know how I blighted his life ? ' ' Yes.' ' Do you know that he loved me with the love that my mother's death hallowed and strengthened, and that I scorned his love, and etang his soul with the sin that it moBt abhorred.' 'Yes.' ' And do you, can you, dare you ask me to see iiim f ' 'Yes, Emily, I do.' 'I am dying,' she entreated, and clasped her hands imploringly ; ' let me go in peace ; I can't bear it ; a sight of that old man would dash me dead at once.' ' Emily ! ' and still he spoke with the same gentle forbearing firmness, '? you have it in. your power to do a thing that shall gratify your father. lie wishes to see you.' 'Yes,' she sighed, ' he wishes to see me, and he will curse me, and then ? ' A bitter flood of tean, the result of exhausted passion. Again, I advanced, end John held me back. 'Yon weep without a cause, Emily. Your father comes here to forgive you ? ' She looked up like b child pleased in the midst of some foolish grief—' to bless you,' She smiled wanly — 'and to rejoice his soul in the sight of his erring child taking refuge, at the eleventh hour, in the arms of A forgiving Saviour.' ?' Where is my father, Mr. Barrett ? ' she inquired. ' Here— can you bear it ?— in the next room.' She burst into a, wild cry. ' So near ! Have I been hesitating and he so near ? Oh, call him directly, Mr. Barrett.' ' Call your grandfather. No, Isola, I will not let you move ; Una, call your grandfather.' For the first time, my little sister met her grand, father, when she led him to her mother's deathbed. He came in, led by her, but I scarce know how they met, in a moment he had my mother folded in his arms, and his lips pressed upon her forehead. ' Curse me, father,' she cried bitterly, ' it will be right, quite right if you do. For I have cursed all your bitter life, my father, my father.' ' God bless thee,' the old man said in a voice thick with Bobs, ' God in heaven bless thee, my darling : God forgive thee ; God take thee to Him self, and thy old father too, now that His Christ has washed out all the weary sin and misery.' ' Come eway, Isola,' said John, ' come to the window. You and I haTe yet got to be reconciled.' I followed him to the window, which was in a recess at the other end of the room. Then he turned round, oxed.his sorrowful eyes upon me, smiled and opened his arms without a word. I found my home, then. ' My love, my love,' I heard him whisper ' ours has been a weary parting, but I have you now for ever.' I sighed, then, but It was because the very weight of my happiness depressed me. ' la It not so r' he demanded. ' For ever, John.' Well, he talked. I can't tell what, and if I could tou would not care to know. When people are so blest as I was at that moment they have no words to describe it, and yet it is to be hoped many people are as.bleet. ' There's more to do yet, love,' John said, ' your father is in the next room, and I want to introduce his daughter to him.' 'M- father: Oh, that man. John, what djeshe here ? I won't see him,' 'Yes, you will.'

' I won't, I say.' ' And jou will, I tay. Why, Isola, I'm muter now.' It w&i a cool argument, but it was unanswerable, at least by me, Besides, the sense that some one cared for me sufficiently to order me was so sweet. I answered meekly, 'Well, if you wish it !' and followed him. Mr. Alvern sat at the table in the outer room, with his head hidden on Mb folded arms. Near him stood Una, injecting the stranger with the wide-open eyes of childhood. John carefully fhul the bedroom door behind us, and, leading me by the hand, touched the wretched mourner over the eflectt of his own sin upon the shoulder. He looked up slowly. ' Your daughter, Charlts,' John said. ' My daughter ! This young l»dy : ' ' Ay, your eldest daughter, and my wife that shall be— Itola ? .' He paused.

AlYlrll* iny laiuct duu, nuj'fj »**??» *??** ?-*mvi ' Isola Alvern, but toon to be Itols Barrett, I trust.' ' God bices he» ! ' my father said, ' if I dare say so. As your wife she will be blessed ; it is, perhaps, better she »h -uld never call me father.' ' I will,' I eaid impulsively, ' I forgive and forget ell the pest, now you are Borry fot it. You arc my faiher.' ' Come here, then.' I put my hand in his, and relumed the kiss he gave me. ' Now take her, Burrett. You are worthier such a wife than I am to have such a daughter.' My father put me again into the srms of the man who, in lees than a month, wsb my husband. A little hand inserted itself into that of my father's that had dropped mine ; a sweet little face looked up in his. ' And no you are a father '.' said Una ; ' I'd like to know if you are my father !' ' What, what ? ' he stammered. ' 1 forgot,' John said, ' this is another daughter of yours, and one that is not likely to be claimed from \ou for a long time 3 et.' ' Oh God be praised, God be praised !' And he snatched her up and folded her in his broad arms, and showered kisses on her golden head. ' Will you tell me about God t ' said the child, p&nting from liis vehement carcsBes. 'We willleum together, my little beauty. But Emily, my children s mother— 1 must see her, Barrett.' ' Hufch ! I will go sec if Ellyss has prepared her.' A few more moments and John returned with my grandfather. My father sprang past them into the room, we heard a subdued cry from my mother, and then a long low murmur of conversation, la half an hour my father called us, and we entered the room together. Uc stood beside my mother's pillow with her hand clapBcd in his, and his eyes turned towards her. Hers were fixed upon him with a look of devour ing love. I scarce knew that John hud led me to a Beat when hiB solemn voice rose in the earnest words the noble wedding e-ervice of our Church. My mothei lay still wiih her eyes searching my father's face, until the last prayer bad been read, and then she laid her head back upon my fathers breast, smiled, closed her cyts, and died. ' Charles Alvern,' said my grandfather,' thee must ehnke hands over my poor dead g«rl. Ood forgive thee, as I do this minute.' ' God forgive me, as I will never forgive myself,' my father suid ; thook the old man' 11 hand, tttouped, kissed my mother's cold brow, and wept.

Tut. Lath Lif.iTKK*!ii-Col/)NKL Gkohok Uiasr.Y, R.E.— The remains of the late Colonel Igarncy, who expired on the lGtu inmant, at his residence on the North Bliorc, were on .the 14th interred In tbc Episcopal Uurving Ground, at 6L Leonards, at halT-past three o'clock. The funeral lai a strictly private one, but a large num ber or gentlemen followed the hearse to the grave, the deceased being much esteemed and respected. Amongst those who thus attended the obtcquicx, besides those more immediately connected « ith tlic lumilr, were; the Hod. K. Dea» Thomson, CIS, ; Colonrl Kempt, the Hon. Charles Kemp, Esq. ; the Hon. V. L. 6. Merc wcllicr, Etq. ; Major W. IL Christie, Mr. C. KoUcston, Mr. John Wbitlon,Mr. S. North, W.I'.M,; Mr. Lord, Mr. Bayers, Mr. Smith, the Hon. J, Mitchell, Ksq.; the Messrs. Ilerruifr, Mr. Uruitt, Mr.Kcpncl, Lord Audley, Mr. Martens, Mr. Allen, Captain 11. J. T. Bbadfunh, Mr. 1. 1. Blake, Mr. II. llalloran, M. Hernia (the Trench Consul), Mr. Clarke, Mr. Miltom, Captain Ward. KK; Captain I'itc, Mr. E. Bogcrs, Captain Mann, anil many others, A considerable number of the poorer residents or tit. Leonaids alto fell into the procession. In all at least 150 pcr boiii were present. The scmcc at the grave was impressively read by the ltev. William Scott, the colonial astronomer. Tto deceased cnteicd the army when still very young, being attached to the Koval Knginctrs, and serving with honour to himself and advantage to his country, for many years in Jamaica, Grenada, and elsewhere lie was present, amongst other similar affaire, at the siege of Tarrifa, and for twenty-one years held the impor tant position of Commanding Engineer in the West Indies, in addition to other high apiioinltncnts. During all this time UK diicascd acquitted himself with great credit, and received ul Jamaica a handsome service of plate ps a public acknowlcdracntot the value or bis services, and In proor of the respect felt towards bun by the community amongst whom he had been stationed. He subtequrntly returned to Kngland, was employed for some time at Chatham, and waft afterwards on'service at Portsmouth, where be effected many highly desirable improvements in the fortifica tions— especially at the outskirts of the ciudel. The inhabitants of Portsmouth presented him with a very handsome piece of plutc as a mark of the high estimation in which they held what he had done fur their increased security. His next important duty was a comminbion from the Imperial Government to visit the Poor Houses in Ireland, and to report upon their state with a view to tlie introduction uf several alterations and improvements of the then existing eyBtcm. In this Colonel barney's exertions gave «o invui.uuh.' .j. .^»»^t ? omwuhimii fi«at thpr Ind Lo hift further of the Hoy al Knginccn* here stationed, and continucu to hold that office until relieved by Colonel Gordon. Ceasing to lie imme diately connected with military duty. Colonel Barney was next appointel Chief Commissioner of the Crown Lands of this colony, Bnd remained In that important office for a great many years. In I8-3 he was appointed superintendent of the new colony or North Australia, but remained at the scat of bis Government— Tort Curtis—cot more than three months, tbc settlement being then euddenly abandoned by orders of the Home Government. Colonel Darncy, after that, returned to England, and there received appointment as commanding onlcer of the Kovnl Engineers at Woolwich, but did not long retain that office, being desirous of returning to this colony, lie accordingly re tired from the army, and came back to Sydney, where he was ap pointee! Surveyor-General on the death of the late Sir Tuoiuay Mitchell. On Ills resignation of this office, the deceased gentleman received a pension of £500 a year, which he continued to enjoy until his death, which was caused by a final attack of paralysis, and took place on the ICth, at liis rcEidcncc, the Priory at St. Lcouaids. The abilities of tbc deceased gentleman as »n engineer were very highly estimated by competent judges, amongst whom may be mentioned the late Lord Baglan. That nobleman, when the home Government was applied to by the colonial authorities for a first-rate engineer to fortify the harbour of i'ort Jorkson, bon? testimony to Colonel Damey'e talents and capa bilities. ?? Why,' said he, ' do you require an engineer 1 Have you not Colonel llarney on the spot— one of the best in the ocrvice ? ' Colonel Barney was as niacb esteemed in private life as he was respected in his position as a public man. lie leaves behind him a son— at present Inspector of Distilleries in this city —and two daughters, one. married to Captaia 6cou, the Police Magistrate, and the other to Mr. 1L H. Browne, formerly Water I'olica Magistrate and Immigration Agent, and now In Englaad. Tbc deceased was In the seventy-first year of his age Detebjiined Suictde.— The death of a man named Bobcrt Martin, who committed suicide by hanging himself on the irth instant, formed the subject of a coroner's inquest at the Hallway Hotel, Gcorce-strcct South, on the following day. It appeared from the evidence that the deceased, who was about fifty years of age, arrived in Sydney on the 15th instant, with a dray and all bones (bis own property), from Bowenfols, and put up at tbc Black Swan Inn, George-street South. There is considerable probability, from his manner after arrival in 6ydney, that he tad been indulging freely fn spirits on bis way down, chough there was no direct evidence on the point, as he was unaccompanied. Oa Tuesday altenioon he went to bed and slept for some time. Oa Wcdnn day morning he went into the city, and engaged with Messrs. J. Fr»r,er and Co. for loading for the country, and re turned in the afternoon 10 the WackSwan. Dp to this time there had been nothing very remarkable in his manner ; he appeared (0 be tolerably sober, and beyond two or three glasses of rum drank nothing intoxicating in the house. During Wednesday night, a groom in the employ of Mr. Ivory (landlord of the homo) named l'ikc, who slept in an adjoining room to tbat occupied by the deceased, heard liim leave his room, and on his return Inquired if he had been for a drink, to which Martin replied In the affirmative, observing that he had drank three pints or cold water ; Martin rose at six o'clock on Thin day morning, and fed his horses, and about fifteen minutes alter be was seen going toward tbe shed in which his horses were standing with a bag of chaff; he was found by another carrier named Dennett suspended by a halter to a rafter in this shed. Bennett at once gave the alarm, and another carrier named Inall ran to the shed and cut the body down. Information was at once forwarded to the station house of the B division of Metropolitan polioc, and sergeant Kcrr ran over and took charge of the body. A messenger was despatched for a medical man, but unfortu nately naif an hour or so elapsed before any could be found, trad then the life of the wretched man was hopelessly gone. Dr. Walker, on being requested, immediately repaired to tno snot, and on his arrival pronounced lire to be extinct. Dr. Walker examined the body, and found that there was no discoloration or abrasion of tbc skin, nor was there any dislocation of the neck, and he gave It an his opinion at the inquest, that had a medical man or olber pcrton opened u TeiQ in the body of the man as soon as he was cut down, the circulation of tbc blood, would hove recommenced, and bis life been preserved— death having resulted from arrest of the cir culation. The' man Inall said ho had known the deceased ataut elx years, and during; that tlmo ho (Martin) had been far from a sober man. Martin had n wife and family at Sowcnfcls, and it is said possessed fome property In the locality. The Jury returned a verdict to the effect, tbat Uc deceased diea from strangulation, having nuuj! himself while suffering from temporary insanity, Fast: Scifctiok.— The G outturn Chronicle of Wednesday says: Yesterday tterc were twelve applications for Government land under tbc nc-v regulations. The number of acr.s proposed to be purchased was 780, the deposits towards which amounted to £190 lOs.— The llraliltrood Obterrrr of same date reports an applica tion from John Sutherland Shut, for the conditional purchase of 40 acres of land, was received by the hind aRcnt yesterday. The land selected Is about a quarter of a mile distant from the Bhoal Baven lload.— The Clarence anti Tlirltmond Eiaminer of Tuesday states that, on tbat day there was only one applicant, viz., Ilonry Tapper, Oration, for 40 acres, county of Clarence, parish of Tut 8i!A«».-.-Thi- Tnn Courier states that since the very ml come lain, the wcathci has been thoroughly autumnal — frosty nights with warm -days. Tbc farmers liavc seized on the oppor tunity given liy the late moisture, and havo been busy ploughing. The ground In upland country is etiU rather hnrd, and those who have commenced lo till there must plough shallow. It is pro bable that a considerable breadth of land will bo sown this season, although the price of wheat is not encouraging. The nightly frosts are dcstrucuvc'of the growth of the grass, but In tbc more densely timbered parts of the dlBtiict vc are informed there Js a slight spring of herbage. Considering Iho long drought, tbe working cattle which pus through the town are in good order. Cum Com..— In the neighbourhood of tbe Hound Mountain, there Is a large quantity of a fatty coal (hale which will even tually be turned to account, especially in the manufacture of Kerosene oil We should not be surprised to hear of a spring of petroleum being discovered in that locality.— Illawnrra Erpmi. It£-CAi-7Tits. — A prisoner named Plannlfran, who somo lime elncc escaped with two others from the Vssb ffnol, his been re l iken at Ike Ciulpb digging!.— I'au Owner,